Ok, i should be taking a nap so that i could write up my research proposal, but i got stuck on the internet... oh well...

I am sooooo tired, i haven't felt this tired, since i did my medicine (clinical) rotation at evanstan hospital.  i just worked at the hospital last night, and it was a crazy night!  I didn't get home until 11:30pm and i too exhausted to eat before i went to bed... 

I keep asking myself, "what am i doing here again???"

i know it will get better soon... i hope...

Saw that hot 1/2 asian guy today.  I already saw him 2 times this week during lunch.  i can't wait until i do a internal medicine rotation so that i may get to take care of one of his patients...an awesome way to initiate and hold conversation with the guy...sigh...but i bet he has a really pretty girlfriend...sigh...

It is my first weekend off and i accomplish nothing!  I have a research proposal due on Aug 1, but i did absolutely nothing today and yesterday...  I told my co-investigator that i will send her a copy on monday... i hope i get it done on sunday.

So what did i do today???  A completely free saturday with sun shining???  I watched Korean Soap ALL DAY.  i watched like (i am very ashamed to admit it) 13 episodes!  Is it even possible you ask?  Oh it is...  i haven't watched any korean TV or spoke korean to anyone (except my mom on every sunday night for 20 minutes) since i moved here... i think i am going through a korean stuff withdrawal... i mean i eat ramen and odun noodles at least 2 times a week so that i have some korean food during the week.  i am so sick of sandwiches... i always eat sandwiches for lunch at work everyday...

i did borrow 2 tapes from a korean grocery store, but when i went back ther other to borrow some more, there was nothing in stock!  And this lady was renting like 30 tapes! (not exagerating)  when i was looking at her pile, she sternly told me that all those tapes were hers...  whatever...  so i decided to sign up to watch the episodes from the korean tv internet site.  i was only sucessful in one station SBS, where i spent 39,000 won (i think around $39?) for a 1 year subscription which allows me to watch 100 episodes and stuff... i hope it is worth it...  however, i was unsucessful on signing up on other sites... it is really hard for me to understand the directions in korean and there is no english translation... some of the words are too hard for me to understand... sigh...

anyways, i watched 13 episodes of show called "Screen"  it is a show about the movie business.  It is ok i guess, the main guy in there is really cute.  strangely, the 2 guys that are fighting over the main girl are both nice and cool... i hate it when they make the decision hard to choose by making both of the guys so likeable... it is so much better when they have a evil guy.  So far i watched all but 1 episode of the show... i am dying to know who she chooses in the end...  i think she will choose the cute guy, but i think she should choose the not as cute guy because he is a cooler character.

i guess it is good that i couldn't watch others shows on other station, or i would not get any sleep this weekend...

Well, it is raining again.

you know, i will never get tan here!  During the day i am in the hospital all day, then when i get home, it RAINS!!!!  What a bummer...  i haven't really enjoyed the good weather here yet...

The other day, i met a really hot surgery resident (i think 1/2 korean, 1/2 white or something).  it really gave me hope, but one of the fellow pharmacy resident told me that there aren't many good looking doctors here.  WHY GOD OH WHY?  I am here all by myself, and i can't even meet loads of hot doctor???!!!????  What is the problem?

I am finally getting used to entering medication orders in the hospital... i think finally when the orientation period is over (july 31) i will have definite arthritis on my fingers from using my 2nd and ring fingers only.  SIGH...

Well, i told my brother that one of my fellow resident has 2 cats at her apartment.  I was saying how i wanted a pet to keep me company.  then he told me that someone from church is giving away cats...  hmmm... but how in the world would i bring the cat over here?  My brother suggested bringing the pet as a carry-on, but it seems so cruel and weird... 

Problem #1: trying to figure out how a pet will travel from chicago to florida without me killing it by accident...

problem #2: will i be able to afford vet/shot fees?

Problem #3: can i afford the extra expense? (food, deposit i have to pay the apartment)

Problem #4: should i get a cat from a animal rights shelter?  that's how the resident got her cats back home in Indiana...

i guess i have to think about a little bit more...

Well...

I am slowly getting use to Jacksonville life.  The sad, sad, sad thing is that i haven't been out in the sun since i moved here! I am getting whiter and whiter each day and i have no time or energy to go and lay in the sun...  What a disgrace...

Today and Tomorrow i am taking a ACLS class (this is the class to be certified to participate in emergency code - you know, CODE BLUE... when people have a heart attack...)  I got to intubate a dummy today.  it was scary because i didn't want to look like an idiot in front of all the doctors...  However, today gave me hope that i will be able to meet some cutie doctors.  this one guy who was in my team was really cute and i think he was half asian...  but... he seemed really uptight.  oh well, you can't have everything.

This weekend, i get to staff at the hospital.  i am not looking forward to that.  i have to be there at 7:15AM!!!  That is ungodly on a saturday!

Yippee!!!

Just to let you guys know, i finally got notice that i passed my board exam and i have a PHARMACIST License!  I realy thought i failed my exams, but somehow i passed them...

Life here in jacksonville, is going ok.  Me and the other residents are hanging out more and getting to know each other better.  We have bunch of fun.

This weekend, i am going to be working at Albertson's pharmacy (equivalent to Osco Drug in chicago).  I have worked at my store in chicago for the past 2 years and it will be really weird to work at another pharmacy with a completely new team.  I am a floater so i won't be working at the same store all the time but, i hope that i get to work consistently at one or 2 stores most of the time.

hopefully in couple of weeks, i could stop by a outlet mall (they have tons here) to buy some cheap stuff to decorate my apartment.  My living room is sooooo empty!

So today, we were discussing bunch of policies of the hospital.  well, we were discussing the policy when there is a disaster natural or not.  But the fact that a hurricane or tornado occuring here is so much likely than chicago is completely freaking me out!  How will i deal with it?  my program coordinator was like "you have to think about what personal/important items you would like to pack in your car...", me and this other resident who is from Indiana was freaking out!  we both never have experienced a hurricane or tornado, let alone any natural disasters!

I just hope that we don't get any hurricanes here this year...  please please please... 

Well, hello everyone!

I am back to sunny florida.  It was really good to see my family and friends again.  Although i was only gone for 2 weeks, it felt like months!  My mom totally made me cry.  she cried when i was leaving again...  i love you um-ma! (mom) 

My flight back was so much better then flight to chicago...

I am trying to figure out my finances today...  i am still using my credit cards to pay for everything.  i will get paid this thursday, but only a week worth... (remember i only get paid $30,000 a year not $80,000 people!)  I will be working for a retail pharmacy Albertson's (same company as Osco) so i will be making a little more money...

Today, i had to attend the Hospital orientation (the ones for everyone that works in the hospital) and the faciliator was so dorky... he acted like he was a talk show host.  he was greeting everyone and shaking their hands as they came into the room.   He kept telling us to "talk to you partner about ... for the next 30 seconds"  well, i guess i am getting paid for doing practically nothing, so i shouldn't complain?

Ok, i am using my brother's stupid computer and the stupid pointer is possessed and erased my previous entry!!!!

Start again...

I am here in chicago again!  It doesn't feel like i left at all.  But i guess that is how it is when you come home i guess (plus the fact that i have been away only for 2 weeks...)  My goodness!  my flight from jacksonville to atlanta was horrible.  First of all, i went into the wrong parking area so i ended up paying $1.50 for 5 minutes because some punk spent 20 minutes getting through the booth!!!!  then i got to sit between 2 people and the lady on my left kept bopping her head on my shoulder the whole flight.  (she didn't even apoligize for it either!)  then the second half of the flight a baby on my row kept crying!!!  to make things worse, we ended waiting, waiting, and waiting for extra hour in total at the terminal when we left jacksonville AND when we arrived in atlanta.  since we got to atlanta late, i ended almost running to my next flight (we arrived in terminal A25 to E11 - probably the farther it could possibly be)  but somehow i am here!

i feel like a weekend is not enough to see everybody again... i know i will disappoint some people, but what can i do?  i think i will spend most of my time with my family.

I think i failed my board exams!!!!!  i don't see my license number on the website still...  i just can't afford to spend another $800 for another set of exams!!!  i just hope you all pray that i did ok on the exams...

HI EVERYONE!!!!!

Well, i finally got my internet turned on today...  It has been pretty crazy and lonely since i moved here...  I've been missing everyone like crazy!  However, i do have good news!  i will come home this July 4th weekend!!!  Yeah!!!! Thanks to my cousin who is paying 1/2 of my EXPENSIVE tickets!

I started my orientation for my residency yesterday.  Everyone seems really nice.  Sad though...only 1 guy in the program and he has a girlfriend... (that's ok, he isn't cute or anything...)

I think the hardest for me to get used to is the fact that there are hardly any Asian here!  I kind of feel like an Alien...