August 13, 2010
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I did win the lottery…
Today, I went into my doctor’s office to get a elective surgery. The nurse taking care of me noted that I had a surgery few years ago for ovarian mass that was malignant. She started saying how lucky I was that I didn’t need chemo or any additional intervention beside the mass removal. She said that her sister died recently of ovarian cancer and she said that it was like “you won the lottery” and I was definitely on this earth for something good. I’ve never really thought much about the event, except that it was a just really shocking… but never took the time to realize how lucky I was. I know i shouldn’t play the “what if” game, but what if it was more serious case? What if I had go through chemo? What if I was so sick, I couldn’t work? Who would take of my mom? Who would take care of my cats? (my mom totally hates my cats) What if I could never get pregnant and have kids? All of sudden… all these what ifs started rushing in my thoughts. I am really thankful for my encounter with the nurse today. It made me snap out my recent funk… I mean I really did win the lottery… A lifetime full of joy… laughter…hugs…kisses…memories…love…just the opportunity to LIVE. What a great way to ease in way into another birthday.
What more do you need in life? Maybe trying to make my mom admit that my cats are at least cute. Sigh… that might take a lot more effort.
